DeathByBigSad

joined 5 months ago
[–] DeathByBigSad@sh.itjust.works 1 points 15 minutes ago

Doesn't matter, he's gonna laugh when he manage to win over my mother and get my half of the inheritance. Their empire that I help build, that I deserve.

Doesn't matter when he gets to live life easily, and I end up homeless, possibly en up in a concentration camp getting sweeped up in ICE raids.

My parents are so fucking ablist. They think giving me anything is a waste. "Go live off welfare, you useless shit", completely disregarding that donald fucling trump is cutting off all the social services right now.

They want me to die.

I have no one else, if my parents cut me off, I'm as good as dead.

After all that I help y'all with, this is how I get betrayed.

Fuck this, I'd rather ICE just get us all, at least we'd be in hell together.

"Filial piety" lmfao fuck this

Fuck confucious.

[–] DeathByBigSad@sh.itjust.works 4 points 1 hour ago (1 children)

higher body might just choose not to argue with the lower body over conflicting laws, like with cannabis legalization

Reminder that marijuana is still federally illegal.

If you are a non-citizen, you could get deported for posession of marijuana, even if your state "legalized" it, because it would still be a crime under federal laws.

So, pro tip: gain citizenship first, then, after you've been sworn in and got the citizenship papers, then you can safely smoke weed...

(Yes, people do get placed into deportation proceedings for possession weed, especially under this current shitty administration)

[–] DeathByBigSad@sh.itjust.works 11 points 2 hours ago

"Waterproof" phones

*not covered by warranty

so it's a lie

Women: exists

Taliban: "Wait, that's illegal"

[–] DeathByBigSad@sh.itjust.works 4 points 3 hours ago (3 children)

Sort of...

I did get accepted, but FUCKING DEPRESSION DERAILED MY LIFE

FUUUUUUUUUUU

i withdrew...

mom got so disappointed in me...

Not even an "A"sian anymore...

fuck my life

now I'm just a puddle of "D"epression

now my older brother has something to make fun of me about... he got a degree and now I bet he feels so smug about it...

like, bro: shut the fuck up bitch ass dipshit, you caused me so much trauma

/end rant

Yes the public transit is better than the US. (in Guangzhou at least)

However, the actual apartment building I used to live in as a kid, it was so shitty and its deteriorating... I hated that place.

Its like... if you make a lot of money and can afford a good place to live, it's fine, but if you are poor, its miserable.

The difference between my area and just a 10 minute walk away to the nearby mall area, was so fucking massive, like decades of development apart, as if you time travelled. Its like: the mall was facing the street so itlooked so nice, then you walk 10 minutes, it looks worse and worse. Literally looks worse than Kensington, Philly (well probably minus the drugs thing, cuz illegal drugs are impossible to get in China, I'm talking aboit how clean the streets looked and how stable the buildings are). Its not like tourists are gonna wander into some alleyway and see what horrible place people actually lived in. It's urban hell.

I live in Philly now, which is regarded by many as a very "slummy" city, but where I live now... this place still looks less bad than where I used to live in Guangzhou.

Kids can pull themselves up by the bootstraps... factories are hiring...

/s

Oh god, I kinda fear waking up on the morning of November 6, 2028 and seeing that map go red (if there even is an election)

I'm gonna get like 2024 flashbacks, go into another, even worse, depression spiral

having a higher number of people in their “support network” (friends and family - ie, 3 generations living under one roof).

Fun fact: My mom told me that, supposedly, if it weren't for the fact that my maternal grandmother (aka: her mother) agree to help take care of me, she would've never given birth to me, as she already has the trouble of dealing with my older brother. My parents were kinda busy with work.

(I'm from China btw... Currently residing in the US)

I also remember sometimes my older brother was just tasked with the "chore" of having to pick me up. I remember once my mom's close friend picked me up from school at the same time as she picked up her kid, I kinda just spent like an hour at their house being bored... not much entertainment... smartphones didn't exist at the time (not that I would've been allowed to have one anyways, I was like maybe 10 or something).

And as for finacial support. My mom borrowed a lot of money from relatives and friends... so yeah... that how she managed to buy a house (she eventually paid them back).

[–] DeathByBigSad@sh.itjust.works 1 points 16 hours ago (1 children)

I'm just trying to find a explanation that "hey maybe deep-down they love me" and use that as a reason live. Like idk how to explain it... feeling loved such a powerful motivator to live.

Like the sadder they'd feel, the more likely I'd appreciate living.

I don't wanna die, but like I really wanna like visit an alternate timeline where the alternate-me does die of suicide, and like I wanna see my parents reaction... Like I know I probably sound sadistic af, but that's not what I meant, I just want to have the "proof" that they care, so with this knowledge, I can finally purge the thoughts of suicide away from my brain... know what I'm sayin'?

 

I mean like, actually understand beyond just exchanging a few words a day. Like knowing hobbies, favorite foods, political opinions, favorite tv/movie/youtube channels/music/genre of entertainment, etc... overall likes and dislikes... you know what I mean...

As to why I'm asking: I feel like my family is just a bunch of strangers sometimes...

I feel like nobody really understands me.

[–] DeathByBigSad@sh.itjust.works 11 points 1 day ago (2 children)

lived under an authoritarian regime

I mean... isn't that just most of history tbh?

Most people aren't antinatalists lol

https://archive.ph/L9Jd0

They removed the fines, so it's a decriminalization, which is practically just legalizing having as many kids as you want.

 

I'm just wondering like... suppose if my parents weren't my real parents, and were actually my kidnappers, how young would that have to have happened?

I have very vague memories of like going to Hong Kong as a kid... and like... suppose I got kidnapped there, would I even have remembered?

How old do you actually remember the faces of your real parents? Can a set of imposter parents manage to trick you? Like somehow brainwash you to forget the kidnapping ever happened? And that you were always their child?

I read about like kidnapping stories where the kid just grow up normally in their adoptive family and apparantly never remember they got kidnapped? What?

(Just curious, definitely not paranoia... xD)

 

As in casual conversation stuff...

My mom wants to talk to me, but my lexicon in my native language is not very vast lmao

 

Sorry I don't mean to sounds like I have main character syndrome, that's not my intent.

 

Just me?

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lemmy.world down... (sh.itjust.works)
submitted 1 week ago* (last edited 1 week ago) by DeathByBigSad@sh.itjust.works to c/memes@sopuli.xyz
 

Fediverse is great, I can post stuff here now as it's down. xD

Edit: damn, they're already back up this quick

Here was the archive: https://archive.ph/RAZ5Q

 

Just curious. Because I think it's very "rude" in the Chinese Culture where I grew up in, to use the real names of people older than you. You have to address them by relationship like "father/dad" or "older brother" or "oldest aunt" "2nd aunt" "3rd aunt" (ordered by who was born first). Like I don't think you are supposed to say Aunt [Name] or Uncle [Name]. Names are never used, only the relationship.

I'm under the impression that some Westerners, particularly Americans, apparantly are on first-name basis with parents... like either because they are very close, or very distant... is that really a thing irl, or is that just the media? I think I saw TV/Movie scenes where the kids (or maybe adult children) called their parent by their first names.

 

cuz I feel like its not political enough to be an actual political meme

 

For Context: I'm Chinese American, and I do not feel "ashamed" for my heritage, neither do I feel "ashamed" for being a US Citizen.

The CCP is not my fault. I do not feel any shame of saying I'm from China.

Similarly, the trump admin is not my fault, I voted Harris. I do not feel any shame for being American.

So what is the thought process of people feeling shame/guilt?

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