You can only feel what it feels like to be you, and since you've only ever been yourself you have no point of comparison.
I don't think gender feels like anything. I am trans, I have been both a man and a woman and in my experience they don't feel different. In this moment I feel like myself, just as I did a decade ago.
The things that have changed is that I no longer suffer from a crippling depression with an unclear cause. I have a range of emotions, and can feel emotions correctly. I consider my body to be part of myself.
All the above are now clearly signs of gender dysphoria, but at the time were hard to identify. The depression always has a more plausible explanation. The other two, I barely noticed I had because I experienced that my entire life.
It took me a very long time to discover that I am trans. It took a lot of self reflection to figure it out. Feelings were useless. I did think I would be happier as a woman, but that always seemed more of a logical deduction than a feeling.
You can only feel what it feels like to be you, and since you've only ever been yourself you have no point of comparison.
I don't think gender feels like anything. I am trans, I have been both a man and a woman and in my experience they don't feel different. In this moment I feel like myself, just as I did a decade ago.
The things that have changed is that I no longer suffer from a crippling depression with an unclear cause. I have a range of emotions, and can feel emotions correctly. I consider my body to be part of myself.
All the above are now clearly signs of gender dysphoria, but at the time were hard to identify. The depression always has a more plausible explanation. The other two, I barely noticed I had because I experienced that my entire life.
It took me a very long time to discover that I am trans. It took a lot of self reflection to figure it out. Feelings were useless. I did think I would be happier as a woman, but that always seemed more of a logical deduction than a feeling.