"intoxicated from intranasal cocaine administration" is such a hilariously sterile way to say it.
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I suggest "bug" applies exclusively to chitinous invertebrates.
Based on the fact that you came to Lemmy for relationship advice, I'm gonna go ahead and assume you're a huge dork. Fear not, I was once also a huge dork. I still am, but now I'm a kinda hot dork with a hot dork wife. I'll tell you how I did it.
I'll break this up into a few sections:
-1. Be Attractive
Rule 1 & 2 reign supreme. Even that quiet nerd you have your eye on wants a relatively attractive partner.
First, basic hygiene. I don't know if this is an issue for you, but it was for me. Fresh breath, clean hair, and no detectable BO go a long way.
Second, exercise. Compound lifts and cardio. You'll build discipline, a more attractive physique, and stamina for the consequences of being in a relationship.
Third, style. T-shirts and flip flops aren't very attractive. Invest in a couple nice button downs, a nice pair of jeans, and shoes that make you look like a grown up. Go to your barber and have an honest conversation about hairstyles that suit you.
-2. Be Sociable
First, learn how to talk to people. It's a cliche, but Carnegie's HtWFaIP is a great starting place if you have difficultly maintaining small talk. But the best thing you can do, ultimately, is getting low stakes practice talking to people. Chit chat with the cashier, compliment random strangers on shirts you like, go to bars and strike up conversations. Conversation is a skill even introverts can learn.
Second, learn how to be rejected gracefully. Not every conversation is going to pan out. Understand that a failed conversation is not the end of the world, and appreciate it for the brief social practice. Not everyone is going to vibe with you, and that's okay. But if you never put yourself out there, you'll never find the ones that do. Learn to be okay with striking out, or fizzling.
Third, try to be interesting. Learn about things that other people find interesting. You can go a long, long way just asking people questions and letting them talk, but knowing a little about the topic they're taking about makes for better questions.
-3. Get Out There
Other people have touched on social hobbies, but it bears repeating. There's not really a better way to find a partner than going to gatherings of people with similar interests. That's where all the people who like the same stuff as you are.
Plus, the more you get out there, the better you'll get at communicating.
It took me years to find my wife, but the journey developed me as a person, and I had a surprising amount of fun in the process.
I'm not sure what you're referring to with the "chemical" thing. I didn't say anything about a chemical marker, is that like a theory of consciousness? I've never heard of it, I'd like to at least investigate it if you can provide a link. I can't find any references linking consciousness to a specific chemical, but I admittedly didn't look all that hard.
Lots of things. Working on a project, reading a good book, a nice meal, vibing in nature, pleasant exercise. There's a lot of suffering in the world, but that doesn't mean you can't enjoy everyday things.
Pens, however, can write a wide range of angles.
Which just means it would have been even easier to make the supplemental angle add up! Ugh.
Yeah I was wondering why it added up to 192ยฐ. Maybe I'm a freak, but I would've measured ambient temperature and drawn a supplementary angle. Also what scale is that thermometer on? That room is either really hot or almost freezing.
it's a stoner thought that for all I know is totally true, but it's so impossible to either prove, model or test
That's basically true for every hypothesis about consciousness, though. That's why it's called a hard problem. Like yeah, we can map neuron activity and record what the subject says they were thinking about. But that doesn't tell us what consciousness itself is.
And those "stoner thoughts" are how we conceptually narrow down the possibilities via internal consistency, and maybe get to something we can test. Just because we haven't developed a test for a hypothesis doesn't mean it's impossible to do so. And even if a test is impossible, that doesn't mean the hypothesis isn't true. It just means we can know whether or not it's true.
We don't really have models to compare too. We have hypotheses, but how do you test them? Is consciousness an electromagnetic phenomenon? Is it purely mathematical? Can it exist in gravitational systems?
We know precious little about the universe. We have snippets of data about our immediate locale, and ever-changing theories about our not-so-immediate locale. We are specks on a rocky speck orbiting a fiery speck on the outer spiral arm of a bigger speck.
Maybe consciousness is a fundamental force. Maybe it is emergent and the universe thinks a billion times slower and bigger than we do. We just don't know, and we didn't really have any way to measure one way or the other. That's the tricky bit about subjective experience.
I don't think it's any more "desperate" than any other theory. The only default position is solipsism: mine is the only real consciousness, and all the rest of you could be inventions of my mind or clever automatons. Once you start generalizing more than that, any line is kinda arbitrary. You either wind up at the universe, or you have to come up with a good reason to stop; and I don't think we have the physics to confidently place that line.
I consider unwarranted dickishness to be a subset of harmful takes

Snail shells aren't chitinous.
Crab shells are chitinous.
Hermit crabs are only partly chitinous, and the shells they use are not chitinous.
Hope that helps