Hi! I'm in my 40's. My dad is ten years passed, and my oldest brother died in a total freak accident. Before I was born. One of the last things my Dad said was "I'll say hi to your brother for you." My brother died right before Thanksgiving. We never celebrated Thanksgiving, not for my whole life. My mom still gets weepy at Thanksgiving almost 50 years later. This was an accidental death. I don't think my parents would have survived a suicide. I had a co-worker at my last job, hadn't seen him in maybe five years, we never hung out, random texts every now and then, not a part of my life. He just killed himself in November. I have spent the last month asking myself if I could have done something, if I had only known...
Suicide affects people you don't even know! Hell, I found my co-worker irritating and immature, but I sincerely wish he had called or said something, I would never wish that level of despair on someone.
I just got my first post secondary at mid-40's, and lucked into a very sweet job... Hell of a gamble but it did pay off for me. Still, I'm now the junior employee in a tight field and back to the bottom of the pay scale. I might be regretting it in a few years. Flip side, I ran in to some of my old co-workers recently... They are universally eyeing the exit.